Danielle

4 days and joe comes home..
5 days and him and i leave for boston
6 days and i will be sitting 6th row for dane cooks show in boston.


i miss him! ) :
sooo much

 so it's been awhile.

let's see... this past wkend was joe's last wkend here, he went back to school. :-(   .. but summer is coming. so there's something to look forward to there.lol.

monday i went and had some drinks with my friend erica..on 3rd. and it got out of hand. i had to take care of her. i was scared, i'm not gonna lie.

i went and hung out with the old crew from summer @ hollys. i had fun. the boys are still .... " boys" and i became annoyed very quickly. and i was mad that they all made me feel horrible for never hanging out, so i ended up going there, and then after 45mins they decide they are going to play a very erotic game of .. strip poker...a game i feel i should not be playing with my boy being miles and miles away. so i left. but whatever i'm over it. no biggie.

today i had a meeting in buffalo. and well. i had breakfast with everyone, and i started to get a migraine, and i thought it was from my contacts so i took them out and wore my glasses. then.. the migraine became nauseus and i ended up getting sick about 6times. so i came home. i then had a fever of.. like 103.2 .. and it kept rising, and i was in a lot of pain.. so i went to the emergency room. where they kept me until my temp went down, because by the time i got there my temp was almost 104. so in conclusion i had a bad case of food poisoning. i feel like i was hit by a train.semi.something. and it sucks.

MREbay007: are you ok ?

Auto response from swtsrf: ..medicine finally kicked in..
I'm here laying in bed watching tv, IM me.or. call /text my cell..

MREbay007: what happened ?
swtsrf: food poisoning.
swtsrf: ive been at the hospital all day
MREbay007: oh shit
swtsrf:  yeah it sucks
MREbay007: what was it you ate?
swtsrf: breakfast food before a meeting in downtown buffalo today.
swtsrf: i didnt make it to my meeting haha
MREbay007: yeah i bet not
MREbay007: what do they got you on
MREbay007: ?
swtsrf:  a pain killer and an antibiotic...
MREbay007: i'm not  eating breakfast ever
swtsrf:  hahahaha
swtsrf: dork
MREbay007: psh   lol
swtsrf:  ur too funny
MREbay007: so are you just chillin' watching movies and thinking of dane cook ?
swtsrf:  heck yes i am
MREbay007: ooo heck watch your mouth
swtsrf:  haha or what?
MREbay007: or i'll drive down there and give you something to be sick about
swtsrf:  well thennn hahahahaha
MREbay007: that sounds bad    lol
swtsrf: will you bring me gingerale
swtsrf: lol
swtsrf: do what you gotta do, just let me drink my gingerale first
MREbay007: LOL

he is too funny. thanks to everyone for being concerned* much love.

all i want is.. to see joe. and i can't. he may come home this wkend. and i hope he does ! but i told him to surprise me. hahaha.

friday.. i'm supposed to work 9am til 11am at the office, and 11am ish til about 2-3pm at tinpan

saturday.. 1030am til 4pm at tinpan.

and thats my wkend. nights off woooohooooo... thats how i like it. haha

so im talking to mike on aim.. and the whole conversation is us doing dane cook lyrics back n forth hahaha

MREbay007: sweet and sour soauce all over my pussy     lol
swtsrf:  hahahaha my favorite part. the drive thru hahaha the first time i heard that i literally cried
MREbay007: last year my roomates bf literally said that everyday
MREbay007: "where do i go?"
swtsrf:  hahahaha you take the one road your on....to me
swtsrf:  ugh no mam, your gonna go to the texaco station make a right drive 5miles youll see a guy in a yellow poncho his name is hank, hell take u to the whopper layer... you have 10mins to get there...or..we take yo food
swtsrf: hahaha love it
MREbay007: lol all memory too
MREbay007: so good
swtsrf:  haha most def

oh man i crack myself up.!.

i cannot talk to mike anymore. he informed me he is going to boston to see dane cook, live....and well.... i was not invited on the fantasical journey..therefore.... we are fighting

the medicine has finally kicked in. and i feel like i'm on drugs...well i technically am..haha

i might just buy me some tickets to go see dane cook in boston..who wants to go?!!?

so all in all. i'm sick, and i want joe here. dane cook is in boston april 15th taping his hbo special..tickets are onsale and i need to go. yep that sums up my week.

<3

i'm gonna miss him. . . a bunch.

last night i got way to drunk for my own good.
from the shit i remember, it was a bad night.



i realized im not doing anything good here...
its one of those times where everything is going wrong in your life and you don't know how it ended up like that.
im a good person i don't do anything wrong to anyone but yet i get hurt everytime in the end

maybe california just needs to come alittle quicker than augest...im thinking more like 3wks. hopefully i can make that happen.

2 words... the downer.
got so fucked up last nite..i thought i remembered everything..but apparently not..hahahahahaha. that's okay though. it was all in good fun


tonight is the merging of tinpan and brickyard employees for our party..which will turn into another drunken fest i'm sure.


i feel like i havent seen joe in forever..haha it's been like 2days.


so i finally rolled into my house this morning about 11am, showered and decided to conquer the boulavard mall... which was good cuz i bought tons of clothes. that i really don't need. my whole closet is filled with shirts with tags still on them, some from summer... ohh well though right.


im getting used to jagermiester. at first i was all like blahh ew gross..if you'd ask me to do it a year ago..and now im just like..let's do it up.

soco now goes down like water.
it's amazing what you can accomplish in 2days hahaha really ..


scariest thing... waking up in a house..you've never been at before hahahahahahahaahahha. i felt really safe. jk jk.. at least i knew the person


alright 4hours to go and ill be drunk. again.. go me.

Dixontofar11: hes back from school right now isn't he
swtsrf: yeah.
Dixontofar11: lol your likin that huh
swtsrf: i am. lol
Dixontofar11: hes a lucky bastard lol

he is lucky isn't he!! haha...



i can't believe it's xmas eve....i can't wait to see my cousins tonight. they got here from california like monday and ive seen them once. crazy kids.


ATTENTION EVERYONE!!
X-Mas Day Night..( Sunday ) i'm bartending at tinpan. we open at 10pm. come and have drinks with us...you do have to be 21. but. mention me..they'll let you in...you can call me first to tell me your about to walk in too... i find it easier that way. haha


i made a new friend. hahahaha.. at first i was trying to get her to talk to russ but now i'm just like.. egh... lol...she calls me now. hahaha


.....................

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
And I just wanna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for St. Nick
I won't even stay awake
To hear those magic reindeer click
Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding onto me so tight
What more can I do
all I want for Christmas is you
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of childrens'
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me
The one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me, quickly
I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just wanna see my baby
Standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

i cant believe xmas eve is tomorrow....it's crazy.



anyways

i found the reptile i want... it's a savannah monitor....he gets 3-4feet long...he's so adorable.
leave it to me to use the word adorable when describing a dino.

i also want an australian sugar glider, now that fucker is adorable.


buy one of these for me and i'll marry you...or love you forever.
^ ( choose one ) ^ hahahaha


leave it to scooter to text message people at 5am. 5am!!!!!!!! all over some silly maryjane.

i want my black stiletto shoes back from bcbg.
i want an australian sugar glider
i want to go out on a date
i want to go build a snow man
i want to be kissed during a snowfall
i want to be loved
i want to go shopping in toronto






i've changed...and everyone is pointing it out.. i'm not "bitchy" anymore..and it kinda bothers me..hahahaha, i mean i don't want to be..but i don't even care anymore. a few months ago if a girl looked at me the wrong way i'd be like what the fuck and i'd start some kind of confrontation..now..i'm just like.. that girls face is weird. hahahaha.. and a few months ago if my boyfriend got mad at me i'd be like fuck you, you call me i'm not waiting around anymore..now i'm like, i'm so sorry, are you mad at me. blah blah wah wah wah....what the hell is wrong with me??? where did the old danielle go. the one who could let go of things and not sit around and worry about every little detail in her life? and i'm jealous. me..yes.. i know shocking.. and i quote sadie.." danielle, steve used to take out his ex to dinner and you'd be like bring me something home tell kate i said hi" hahahahahahahahaha soooooo why why why, am i jealous.. over something so retarded. sooooo fucking lame..i can't even stand it...and everyone i talk to about it, says the same thing.. whats wrong with you , you've changed, and i don't like it.. well i'm so sorry. but im trying. i really am... and i think about it all the time..if i could sit there and hang out with my ex and his ex all in one room, and them hangout when im not around..why am i thinking so far into some chick, i don't know, nor..does he know... i don't understand...i guess maybe i wouldn't care if i knew her. maybe it's the fact that i have not the slightest clue who this chick is that bothers me. ... still it's weird.. i've never been like this. so why now. probably because he hates jealousy. thats probably why this is happening to me. haha. i need to try harder.

for everytime you hear me say i have the worst hangover ever...give yourself a quarter from now on..haha

i wake up tooo early...my head is fucking spinning like a mother fucker

its lisa's fault she text me before work
it said
" hun, do you have any idea where you are right now, haha "
hahahhahahahahahhahaha that's sad.


i know i'm gonna hear stories today..and oh man i don't know if i want to.because when i wake up...with..jeans/shoes.and my coat on..in bed..under my covers hahahahahhahahaha that's not right. oh, and my hood was up... lol..


last thing i remember was at like 9:30 we decided to go tequila shots..and then i woke up in snow gear this morning in bed lmao!!!!!
who does that hahahaha


wedbburnin: yo
swtsrf: haha helloooooo
wedbburnin: u know i think u can out drink anyone
swtsrf: no way man, i feeeeeel so fucking shitty right now
wedbburnin: i believe it u basically shared a bottle of tequila with some chick
swtsrf: well that's really the last thing i remember.
wedbburnin: u passed out in the snow last night and then like 10mins later got up n wanted a shot ur fucking crazy haha
wedbburnin: look in ur front yard c some snowmen?
swtsrf: shut up hahahahahaha
wedbburnin: did u go look
swtsrf: hahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahahh
swtsrf: no way in hell
wedbburnin: i didnt make em that was ALL u n lisa
swtsrf: arent you supposed to be my friend
swtsrf: haha
wedbburnin: only the best
swtsrf: so why did you let me get so freakin intoxicated.
wedbburnin: cuz its hilarious u are the funniest chick i know when u get drunk like that
wedbburnin: u laughed in some guys face cuz he told u his name was harry gong and then said why would parents name a kid such a thing
swtsrf: omg. was it really his name? i feeeeel soooo bad
wedbburnin: no it wasnt they were messing with u
wedbburnin: u officially popped a squat on the side of the thru way
swtsrf: how much more do you have to tell me.
wedbburnin: i have a whole book.
swtsrf: hahaha oh man. we might have to do dinner




shit it's fucking 9am and when you fall over getting up out of bed its a sign to go back to sleep right? hahahahahah yes yes it is..


goodnight/morning. people.

Your 2005 Song Is

Feel Good Inc by Gorillaz "Love forever love is free. Let's turn forever you and me." In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain.

..im so glad i found you..

..not only have i been doing my BEST to stay away from local bars so i don't run into you... i've even MOVED ON...!! therefore...WHY WHY WHY are you doing this to me..!!!!???!!

i haven't spoke to you since september...yet you plan your work party at my place of employment...and YOU REQUESTED ME!!!!!!!!!!! AS THE WAITRESS!

WHO DOES THIS!!!???!!!!


it wasn't bad enough that you slept with all of WNY..(hahahah) and now you want to be stuck in a room with me for 6hours...you're gonna be getting the wrath of an angry angry girl....

i hear you've been talking to my mother too.. stop..i know you read this...it's not gonna work... you're never going to fix what happened. you're never going to have another chance... get over it, and get over yourself.


and here's the answer to your question...

YES, he is BETTER than YOU.

...as i move more i feel more drunker than before... haha more drunker


let me sum up tonights activities~

snowball war
dane cook
football in the snow ( i feel my bruises already ) whose idea was tackle?
getting lost ( walking ) hahahhahaha
random pictures...
..i found this sign in a store window...
it said
Cigarettes
Beer
Lubricants
hahahahahaha
i basically died of laughter.


we were stalked...
made some chick jealous and all we had to do was giggle and the girl went crazy! hahahaha i laughed...so did sadie...
she was all like.... " i hope she makes you happy " hahahahahah apparently she couldn't tell sadie and i were together hahahaaha..
strip poker...
suzie q:" ummm our shirts are off, and ughhhh boyssss you're cheating"
hahahahahahahahahahaha.. oh sudzie hahah....can i bring you any bubbles?

did i mention twister... lol...
sex toys! sex toy party!.. sadie and i decided after looking at the catalogs , that we are gonna have one. asap ladies, asap!


hahaha and how come every guy out tonight was a fucking retard....seriously...when a girl turns her back to you while you're talking that means to walk away...quickly... hahahahah..not to tap her on the shoulder and say um hi, excuse me.... my names yada yada yada...yeah yada i heard you the first time...this is when i walk away and you don't follow hahahhahahahahahha... what a bitch! lol...it was funny seriously you had to be there... i snorted..thats how hard i laughed...hahahahhahaha


seriously i look at my bed and my room starts spinning like the fucking tornado right wait no....ride.. haha at darien lake.


so sadie showed up at russ's and he was upstairs in his room on the phone with the retarded canadian... so we were like let's go bug russ... well as soon as we started being "annoying" hahahahah as we like to call it.. she was like who is that, yada yada...wah wah..cry cry... so as we are laying there... sadie and i are looking at his ceiling... here comes the convo

sadie: " dan, loook! i love the glitter on his ceiling"
me:" sade, that's not glitter it's cum..."
sadie: ' hahahahhahahaha'
me:" i see the big dipper! " " twinkly twinkle little star"
sadie: " hahahah"
me: " it's like an exact replica of the star pattern " " good shot "
hahahhahahahhahahahaha

while this took place not one person out of the 6 of us in the room...well besides me and sadie... knew what we were talking about... lol.


crazy kids...

that's it !! phone number change !!... the jackass did it...he got into my voicemail....and then called me back to tell me he's going to ruin my life because i've moved on to someone else...what a fucking freak! seriously lay off the alcohol, and drugs...why do you think people leave you in the first place...why did i ever stick around in the first place??...maybe if you were a TAD fucking normal!!!!!!!!!


anyways... hah


got drunk tonight... fell asleep on the most comfortablist
(is that a word?) ..anyways..most comfortable couch in the world!! bravo to russ for getting it... so0o i'm trying to get russ to let me bring him a mastiff puppy..... he fell for it... haha.. but jason didn't.. lol..damn. i told em i'd take care of it!!!! hahahaha.. i can't bring another dog to my house , that would be number 4...not good.


i can't watch movies at midnight anymore... i need to be doing something productive , cause i always fall asleep...i'm glad everyone has been in the going out moods lately, cuz it's getting me back into the good ol' days memories..and all i wanna do is hang out drink, and have fun. which is definitely not a bad thing.



i understand that Scissors can beat Paper, n i get how Rock can beat Scissors, but there`s no fucking way Paper can beat Rock. Paper is supposed to magically wrap around Rock leaving it immobile? why the hell can`t paper do this to Scissors? screw Scissors, why can`t Paper do this to people? i`ll tell you why, because Paper can`t beat anybody, a Rock would tear that shit up in 2 seconds. when i play Rock/ Paper/ Scissors, i always choose Rock. then when somebody claims to have beaten me with their Paper i can punch them in the face with my already clenched fist n say, oh shit, i`m sorry, i thought Paper would protect you, you asshole . . .

hahahahha...honestly could you be any funnier.?


ryan is coming back for xmas...for 2 wks... ..... ..... ... .. .


all i gotta say is... suzzzzzane...it's always my fault huh!!!! oh no, it's never suddzies fault ! hahaha..always MINE! hahhaha.. i definitely understood the whole concept behind the joke after we hung up...lol..


this is what i heard tonight in drunken conversation.
" i don't think he realizes how lucky he is to have you "
..thanks guys...but i like to think he does...well a mind can hope right.
lol.


sadie's washer went A-wall...so russ donnie and i went to the rescue..well russ and i stood there and made fun of it... and the xmas tree...in our pj's..hahaha for like 15mins then left...hahahhahahahahaha..

hmm.. a lot has happened...

everyone realized my "i don't give a fuck" attitude is back and it's kinda funny..... it's the easiest way for me...and if someone gets mad about something i do, or say..guess what.... i ...don't...give...a...fuck.. haha like that motto? cuz it seems to be working for me.


a few more days... i'm so impatient.

i'm really hurt, but he doesn't care.... he doesn't seem to care about anything..that's when the tears stream down my face... can my heart handle this..? i do so much for him, and he doesn't seem to care one bit..or doesn't show it too well. and then i'm like well why do i care so much..about him, about us..i can't help that i fell for him..he's a great person.? and someone who really doesn't have the best rep about telling the truth, told me some things and i really don't believe them...but then deep down inside i'm like, well maybe it's true, and if it is...would he do it again... and yada yada... cuz that's my way of thinking...

right now i decided my best bet is to just go on with my life, put all negative thoughts to the back of my head, and just do whatever...cuz sitting here pondering all these horrible things that he may be doing behind my back isn't getting me anywhere...and it sure as hell isn't helping my moods any.... i just need to forget all horrible things men do and live.... right?? just live, and whatever happens happens

Did I disappoint you or let you down
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won
So I took whats mine by eternal right
Took your soul out into the night
I am here for you if youd only care
You touched my heart you touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals
And love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you
Ive kissed your lips and held your head
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you well I know your smell
Ive been addicted to you
You have been the one
I am a dreamer but when I wake
You cant break my spirit its my dreams you take
And as you move on remember me
Remember us and all we used to be
Ive seen you cry Ive seen you smile
Ive watched you sleeping for a while
Id spend a lifetime with you
I know your fears and you know mine
Weve had our doubts but now were fine
And I love you I swear thats true
I cannot live without you
You have been the one for me



best song ever...

found some good xmas gifts today....


saw laura at work...kidnapped her and took her to mighty...



so my "puppys" new thing is to..drink out of the tiolet and when he is finished, he presses his nose up to the tiolet paper roll on the wall and once he grabs ahold of the loose piece he runs with it....until the paper doesnt go anymore..... its hilarious and horrible to pick up lol...
he is bigger than our full grown 7 yr old....and he is only 8months old. haha... he's gonna be hugee...


so we are having thanksgiving at my house this thursday.. cuz we were all away on the real thanksgiving... this outta be good.



i can't believe 20days til xmas....

everyone has to come visit me, xmas day... 10pm tinpans doors open...ill be bartending ...everyone come , come.....

...my drinking phase is coming back into play... haha and all it took was alittle song called the whisper song hahahahaha..


friday night i went to bigbucks...it was alittle boring cuz it was me and russ and jason..but once i got drunk ( which didn't take long ) i got over it....why don't i think like that all the time? haha

yesterday i was planning on having quiet time.. haha. because dane cook was on snl and yada yada.... well... the crew came over to "rescue" me from quiet time...and we decided to play beer pong...not a good idea...i lost... a lot... hahaha...i think that was their plan...because then they tricked me into going to a party...but i do have to say .. it was well worth it. who the party was for..no clue.. where it was..ummm somewhere in devo... and how i got home.... and in my bed....haha.. im hoping i get those answers sometime today....


i want to build a snowman.... and have a snow ball fight... and make out in the snow.... and then go make out in front of a fire place..hahahah sound good?

my heart just died..

...i cry and reach out for you but you're not there...

 

never knowing is what kills me the most.

 

the more i fear, the more blood i get on the carpet, the more tears running down my face trying to wash the pain away,  my heart's never satisfied

 

 

 

Prodidgy: keep those eyes enough to paralyze, you'll have me hypnotized... this girl with the pale blue eyes...
ialProdidgy: your enough to drive hearts weak, the glare from you impares my lips to speak.. grant me this wish and I'll wish for you nothing but dreams and for all to come true.


those are the sweetest words ever...said...

what a doll.